Things have changed in the last couple of weeks.
For one, his girlfriend moved out at the weekend and I'm going to view a flat this evening, so it seems like there is no going back.
But does this mean that we are embarking on a more conventional relationship? Or will we both be seeing other people as well as each other?
Everyday, I feel myself getting more and more emotionally involved. Take today for example; it's my birthday in a few weeks time and I was hoping he would meet me after my party at this hotel we both loved...
So I sent him an email...
"Quick question, what are you doing on the night of Friday 30 March?
Cause I've got that room at ******* and was thinking we could do stuff if you want to meet me after my party. Let me know x"
And he replied: "not sure yet but sounds like a plan - will know by end of week as is flat dependent"
And then, where in the past, I would have been totally okay with that answer, knowing full well that he has his own life and commitments, this time, I wasn't okay with it at all, replying with
"tell you what, don't worry about it (not being cross)just that i need to get my stuff sorted out
And he replied: "not sure yet but sounds like a plan - will know by end of week as is flat dependent"
And then, where in the past, I would have been totally okay with that answer, knowing full well that he has his own life and commitments, this time, I wasn't okay with it at all, replying with
"tell you what, don't worry about it (not being cross)just that i need to get my stuff sorted out
:-) speak later take care"
So now what do I do? His one word reply 'okaaaaaay' didn't make me feel good about myself or my reaction.
I've screwed up, haven't I?
I shouldn't have expected anything, and I never have from him.
This is why I hate the fact that things are changing. It's driving me crazy.
I was so afraid of this happening... he sent me a text the other day, asking if he would be able to see me "because he has no commitments now"... so does this mean he's single?
Because I'm not and if I can't see him when he would like to see me, then will he look around for other people?
This is why I preferred the whole affair scenario; at least that way, we had to plan things, now he's wanting to be spontaneous and I still have to plan stuff around my present commitments.
So now what do I do? His one word reply 'okaaaaaay' didn't make me feel good about myself or my reaction.
I've screwed up, haven't I?
I shouldn't have expected anything, and I never have from him.
This is why I hate the fact that things are changing. It's driving me crazy.
I was so afraid of this happening... he sent me a text the other day, asking if he would be able to see me "because he has no commitments now"... so does this mean he's single?
Because I'm not and if I can't see him when he would like to see me, then will he look around for other people?
This is why I preferred the whole affair scenario; at least that way, we had to plan things, now he's wanting to be spontaneous and I still have to plan stuff around my present commitments.
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